I found myself in a deep state of hopelessness and disempowerment after going through a divorce, and sharing custody of my little son. I broke in pieces....holding a victim mentality, slowly deepening into my shadows. At that time, I felt I had to partially freeze my heart... my love for my son and for the world... because the pain was simply too overwhelming to bear.


Questions began to surface:
Am I truly worthy of love?
Do I even deserve to be happy after all?

And every time I tried to move toward healing or joy, waves of guilt and shame would rise within me, keeping me stuck.

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One of my deepest wounds throughout life has been the fear of rejection. I didn’t want to disappoint anyone or create conflict, because it felt unsafe. So I built a false image of perfection... something my nervous system could accept as “safe.” As a result, I developed patterns of people-pleasing, becoming “the savior,” over-explaining myself, and denying my own needs and emotions to protect others' comfort. These became my “natural” responses to life.
 

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Unworthiness. Perfectionism.
These programs are deeply familiar to many souls, including mine.
And in those low vibrational states, I found many false sources of joy... a temporary illusion of freedom and ease.

 

​​Eventually, I reached a point where I completely lost my sense of meaning… and suicidal thoughts began to appear. In my despair, I started to cry out to God/Source, pleading for answers, for truth, for clarity.

I was angry...

...angry at God/Source, angry at everything I had ever been told. And it was in that breaking that my spiritual awakening truly began.
 

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I share this sacred vulnerability with you because I long to connect on a heart level. I believe that only through authenticity... through releasing the ego and the protective layers of our wounded inner child... can we truly awaken, uplift others, and together create Heaven on Earth by returning to our Divine, True Essence.

What if sacred vulnerability is the full expression of God?​​​

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